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Tuesday, January 17, 2017

Men: 7 Battle Tactics in the Fight for Virtue

This past week, I totally wiped out.  I gave into paralysis as described in John Eldredge’s Wild at Heart explanation of the story of Adam and Eve:

Needless to say, the story doesn’t go well. Adam fails; he fails Eve, and the rest of humanity. Let me ask you a question: Where is Adam, while the serpent is tempting Eve? He’s standing right there: “She also gave some to her husband, who was with her. Then he ate it, too” (Gen. 3:6 NLT). The Hebrew for “with her” means right there, elbow to elbow. Adam isn’t away in another part of the forest; he has no alibi. He is standing right there, watching the whole thing unravel. What does he do? Nothing. Absolutely nothing. He says not a word, doesn’t lift a finger.* He won’t risk, he won’t fight, and he won’t rescue Eve. Our first father—the first real man—gave in to paralysis. He denied his very nature and went passive. And every man after him, every son of Adam, carries in his heart now the same failure. Every man repeats the sin of Adam, every day. We won’t risk, we won’t fight, and we won’t rescue Eve. We truly are a chip off the old block.

I was haunted by the question Eldredge later writes about his marriage: “What if I offer her all I have as a man and it’s not enough?”    It described me to a tee.

He continues:

The evidence is clear: Adam and Eve’s fall sent a tremor through the human race. A fatal flaw entered the original, and it’s been passed on to every son and daughter. Thus every little boy and every little girl comes into the world set up for a loss of heart. Even if he can’t quite put it into words, every man is haunted by the question, “Am I really a man? Have I got what it takes . . . when it counts?” 

When it counted, I didn't come through for Mimi.  A week later, through gracious prayer from my beloved, I feel like I’m finally coming back to being me.  I’m beginning to feel the warmth return after a frostbite devoid of emotion.  How do I respond?  Prayer has lead me to write this list of advice for men (and to myself) from seven quotes that I didn’t listen to all week.



Monday, November 14, 2016

Fight for one daughter at a time

This past weekend, I attended the 30th Anniversary of an organization I’m affiliated with called the Maryland Coalition Against Pornography. I was surprised and honored when at the end they presented me with an award for my work in the movement.

I’m moved because this Friday, I turn 29, so this organization literally has been existing and fighting the porn epidemic my entire lifetime. Picking up the torch, I will fight for the rest of my life.

I fight for women like the traumatized event’s speaker, whose father had a porn addiction, which lead to cheating on his wife and eventually to purchasing a prostitute.

I fight for men (and women) I’ve talked to over the years who have a hard time quitting their addiction, want it out of their life so they can love their families and friends the way they were meant to. I fight for men like one I met in Texas, that after hearing my story, decided to tell his wife about his addiction and together is turning their marriage around.

I fight for children---especially my girls---who want a porn-free daddy in their lives to love them, hug them, and see them for the amazing daughters that they are.

I’m nowhere near perfect personally with this fight. And maybe I won’t change the world. But I will fight for the world of difference for one daughter at a time who gets to grow up with a father and mother who sees her with porn-free, pure, and loving eyes.

That is worth fighting for the rest of my life.





Wednesday, November 9, 2016

Father, the Pro-Life Movement is Better than This

This post is concerning a popular priest’s stunt concerning an aborted fetus a few days ago.  If you do not know what I’m talking about, that’s a good thing.

I must make clear that his actions does not and should not represent what the Pro-Life movement nor what Catholic identity is all about.  Many of my friends of the younger Catholic generation and I are angry at his stunt, and higher authorities are reprimanding his actions as they should.

Although I didn’t vote for Trump (nor Hillary for that matter), I am optimistic, as I’m sure many are, about the possibility of real change in policy and laws concerning abortion.  However, let’s be clear, as important it is for the law to change, it’s even more important that hearts do, too.

I believe we are on the tipping point of the pro-life movement.  So let’s remember what our positive message should be.

I believe that pregnant women and their partners deserve to know all of their options of truth, love, and support concerning carrying through with the pregnancy, keeping the baby or offering the life for adoption before they make the choice of abortion.  Unfortunately too many women and their partners  in these situations believe abortion is their only choice and are unaware of the life-affirming love and support available to them.  They deserve better.

For two years I worked at a pregnancy resource center, Centro Tepeyac, that was that shining light that gave dignity of choice, support, and love to these women and couples.  Our main job was to give compassion, truth, and counsel to women and their boyfriends considering abortion.  I’d simply ask guys to tell me the pros of keeping the baby and then “pros” of going through with the abortion.  Nine times out of ten their list of keeping the baby outweighed the other.  I’d also spell out their third option of offering the baby for adoption.  Lastly, I would tell them that I would be there for them no matter their decision.  If they kept the baby, I could offer him diapers, clothes, and connect them to the right insurance agencies, walking every step with them.  If they chose adoption, we could point them to our waiting list of people waiting to adopt.  We have even been there at the hospital helping them connect their newborn baby with his or her new adopted parents.  And even if they were to choose abortion, I said I would be there for him after because unfortunately, many guys go through depression when this happens.  I’ve had one guy call me back crying on the phone, “Matt, I feel like I lost my fatherhood,” and I, with God’s grace, helped console him.

Our Center has seen a number of women who have been raped, who then became aware of their option to adopt, offered the baby to parents waiting to love them, and mother, child, and adoptive parents were all happy in the end.

What if women and couples got to have dignified conversations, love, and information like this allowing them to really see all their options and support there is for each?



That is what the Pro-Life movement should be about.  I’m for life-affirming messages like what Centro Tepeyac and amazing Save the Storks is doing.  Not the stunt of this well-intentioned but totally inappropriate actions of this priest.

Let’s move together and build upon the positive message that women, men, and the unborn in these situations do deserve better.  May our hearts change together.

Amén.

Wednesday, April 6, 2016

I'm a sinner. And you are, too.

I'm a sinner and you are, too.
(Makes for a pretty good children's book title if you ask me)


It's 1 o'clock Wednesday morning and I can't go to bed.  Being a usually heavy sleeper and can sleep anywhere, I take note that if I can't go to bed, it's usually a sign from God that I'm meant to do something else with my time.

Usually it's to write.



Tuesday, February 23, 2016

My baby gender prediction for #2

So I've told a lot of people my theory, but I wanted to put it in public with a time stamp to prove I did have the theory down on paper before given results.

Today Mimi and I will find out the sex of our baby #2.

Before Teresa was born, I had this theory:

That our first three children will be girls.  So far I'm one for one.  We'll find out if we're two for two tonight....  to be continued!