I've spent the last 12 hours alone in my apartment.
I got home from work. Took a 20 minute nap from just being straight tired.
I woke, I cooked dinner blasting some radio. (I often like to be creative, but this time just cooked spam and rice partly because I wanted something fast, and hugely because I have nothing else to eat. Time for the grocery store.)
I cut coupons for a grocery store run.
I got online, watched a TED talk while my food digested.
I wrote a couple e-mails.
I filled out my paper work for my new apartment lease.
A song came on, "Beautiful Things" by Gungor, a song that brought memories to me while I was in Florida recruiting.
I whipped out my guitar to learn it.
I played it over and over again until I got it right.
I called Mimi.
I went to bed.
I slept in (9 a.m., glorious!).
Went to the gym. Got big.
Came back and made a oats, banana, peanut butter concoction to supplement me.
|I don't mind doin' it.|
Don't mind folding.
But ironing and putting it away?
While I had the tools out I fixed the wheels on my laundry cart.
I shaved my head(it was getting a lil long. I was proud that I'm getting better with the sideburns.)
Cleaned some of the bathroom.
I did two loads of laundry.
I cleaned my built-up mess in my room.
I put up some things to sell on ebay.
I ate lunch (leftover spam and rice). While I ate, I read a book.
While I folded laundry, I listened to another talk.
Mimi called, called her back.
Now I'm about to get ready to go see my boy Bobby and his birthday bash.
Yes, I was tempted to look at porn.
No, no one would have known otherwise.
For years, I've wasted a lot of time with 12 hours alone before, have fallen into various temptations with one hour, forget about 12.
But today I just had things to do.
About a year and half ago, I didn't tell myself, "Matt, you're going to break it and never will ever again."
Success begets success. Count our wins, not our losses. Build on momentum. If we fall (and I have), get up immediately again. Shoot for longer times between falls. And after awhile, we'll even lose count of our wins. I also understand that despite my victories, I am susceptible to fall any day, even today. That's why I cling to God.
But for now, this was my 12-hour victory.