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Friday, November 30, 2012

A different take on "I won't give up" by Jason Mraz

Powerful. If I let myself believe it.
When I first heard "I won't give up" by Jason Mraz, I was in the car with my sister, who turned it on telling me how it gets her every time because it makes her think of Steve (her husband) and how she feels like he's singing it to her.  I get caught up in it too, thinking how moving it must be for her to hear those lyrics.

In recent months, I've taken the song personally and let it be my song to Mimi, not that we've been really rocky or anything lately, but more as a song saying that I don't intend on ever giving up on her, on us.

Recently this past week, this song's meant a little different.  Having gone through a pretty stressful semester getting to a point where was ready to just quit, I've been doing a lot of soul searching lately, recently praying to God, "Father, may I be able to accept and feel your love for me."

Then in the bathroom the other day as I was getting ready for work, this song came on.  And it was like I was hearing it again for the first time, and it was as if He was singing these words straight. To. Me.

I listen to this song, and I hear it as Jesus singing to me.  And after all I've been going through, it's been something pretty powerful.  I feel like my sister, choked up, reflecting on how there is someone who won't ever give up on me. On us.

I'd like to hope and share that this song is not only for me either.  If we let ourselves believe.

"I won't give up"

When I look into your eyes
It's like watching the night sky
Or a beautiful sunrise
There's so much they hold
And just like them old stars
I see that you've come so far
To be right where you are
How old is your soul?

I won't give up on us
Even if the skies get rough
I'm giving you all my love
I'm still looking up

And when you're needing your space
To do some navigating
I'll be here patiently waiting
To see what you find

'Cause even the stars they burn
Some even fall to the earth
We've got a lot to learn
God knows we're worth it
No: I won't give up

I don't wanna be someone who walks away so easily
I'm here to stay and make the difference that I can make
Our differences they do a lot to teach us how to use
The tools and gifts we got, yeah, we got a lot at stake
And in the end, you're still my friend at least we did intend
For us to work we didn't break, we didn't burn
We had to learn how to bend without the world caving in
I had to learn what I've got, and what I'm not, and who I am

I won't give up on us
Even if the skies get rough
I'm giving you all my love
I'm still looking up, still looking up.

I won't give up on us (no I'm not giving up)
God knows I'm tough enough (I am tough, I am loved)
We've got a lot to learn (we're alive, we are loved)
God knows we're worth it (and we're worth it)

I won't give up on us
Even if the skies get rough
I'm giving you all my love
I'm still looking up

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