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"What is my name?"
Tonight I went to a men's prayer and discussion group and that became the main topic of discussion: who does God call us by name?
Last March, I wrote a post called "'Why am I?' and why I write about porn (and anything else)" and it was a good clarification to remind myself why I write and do the things I do. For someone who thinks he has a handle on who he is, why he is, and whose he is, I often struggle to remember these three truths on a daily basis.
I remember the first time I asked God who I am and what he thought of me. It was while I was reading John Eldredge's Wild at Heart junior year in college, and he suggested to bring the question to God. He also talks about bringing another question to God, which he refers to as "The Question that Haunts Every Man". I wrote about this question last April: do I have what it takes?
For someone who considers himself to be doing what he loves on a day-to-day basis, I often fail with my own feelings of inadequacy questioning those deep intimidating questions: who am I? why am I? whose am I? and do what I have what it takes?
Although I'm not having consistent weeks, I will have exemplary days. And I have to say, it's because I'm falling in love over and over again. It definitely has to do with last May and when I wrote that love letter to the love of my life. And it wasn't Mimi.
If you haven't brought that question to God yet, any of them, I have to say, it has been life-changing for me. Try it. One day in prayer, ask:
Father, who am I?
Father, what is my name?
Father, why am I?
Father, Do I have what it takes?
If we bring it, and are patient with it, and receive it, and then believe it, I think something powerful could very well happen.